No life.
Constant stress.
No idea what you’re doing.
Basically you wake up in the morning and walk into your first class. You take out your notepad ready to jot down some notes then your professor announces some quiz or mid term you have to take the following week. You say “fuck” in your mind or even out loud and quickly jot it down. Lectures are interesting but then you get lost halfway through. You look around you, everyone’s furiously scribbling stuffs down and nodding their heads in agreement and all you’re thinking is, “Wtf is going on?”.
Class ends, you now walk out of the lecture theatre to head to your next class. Due to the frustration from your previous class, lack of sleep and hunger, you probably am thinking about skipping your next class. When you eventually drag yourself to your next class, you are so tired that you can’t even focus. You force yourself to jot down notes. Let’s say it’s a physics lecture… the only thought that would constantly run through your mind would be “where the fuck does he get all that equations/formulas from?!”. Then you look around and everyone is just focusing and you feel like the stupidest person in class.
Basically a day of classes would probably be the times where you just feel like the dumbest kid in class cause everyone seem to know what the professor is saying and they are jotting down all the important stuffs. Sometimes, I feel like screaming out loud “IS THERE ANYONE IN THIS CLASS WHO FEELS AS LOST AS I DO?!” but it seems like a stupid thing to do cause I probably am the only one.
It’s so tiring, I haven’t had a real break. Every single week there’s a quiz, a mid term and it has been continuously been going on for a month and now my second week of mid term’s coming up. I’m not doing well in classes, I’m not getting what’s being taught. It’s just a very stressful period right now. I haven’t been able to join activities I like cause I feel so tired all the time.
I feel no passion. No motivation. No goal.
Just nothing.
